DancingSinging (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} dancingsinging) wrote,@ 2008-09-08 13:37:00 |
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Me, Me, Me
I just spent the weekend on a mini-vacation in South Lake Tahoe with one of my best friends. It was awesome. My daughter and hubby had a special "Daddy weekend" and I sat around drinking wine by the lake, talking with my friend, swimming in the pool, drinking champagne, dancing, drinking a bit more, and sleeping in. I even managed to avoid a hangover.
This is a part of the "me time" parenting philosophy I've been trying out. The idea is, if you create space in your life to do things like be with your friends and do your creative work, you end up being a much better model and a much more patient, loving parent with more of yourself to give.
By and large, it's working. Since I started working again and taking an hour or two to write while my daughter's at school, the resentment I had been feeling about being a mom has evaporated. I pick my daughter up at school excited to see her and eager to spend two or three hours playing with her and doing things together.
The problem, though, is that I seem to be insatiable about "me time." Every day, when it's time to turn off the computer and go pick up my daughter, I'm really tempted to leave her there for a bit longer. I played a season of league soccer, and now I want to also lift weights, ride my bike, and take Pilates reformer classes several days a week. I still want to go back and take refresher Math classes then apply to graduate school. I could easily fill up twenty hours a day just doing things for myself. And it feels like even then, I would want more.
So where is the line between responsibly taking care of yourself and just being selfish?
